Healthy start

So.. I'm on the road to a new body started my clean eating plan yesterday (Monday) joined up at the gym as well and started packing really healthy lunches and snacks for work. Today:
Breakfast-oats with rice milk blueberries and a dash of cinnamon
Morning snack- banana and strawberry smoothie made with Greek yoghurt.
Lunch -rye wrap with chicken baby spinach tomato and cucumber.
Afternoon snack -rye crackers with boiled egg and cottage cheese.
Dinner- kangaroo steak and steamed broccoli and cauliflower.
It sounds like a lot but there's really not much calories in everything if u think about it, I'm supposed to eat 5-6 small meals a day every 2-3 hours. Anyway I'm really enjoying it so far even tho it's only day 2. I should take some pics of myself for before shots! I hate those but hopefully I can make one of those awesome before and after pictures

Other than that beau finally got a job, hence the reason we can afford to go to the gym now even tho I am paying for him, I guess he paid for me last time we went to the other gym so yea... This is great I feel like this will be one of the best summers everrr!! I got such a good deal joining up, didn't pay a start up fee or anything because the manager of the club lives with the girl I work with, she lives in a share house so anyway, still unfair she gets her membership for free tho lol.

So that's all for now, hope everyone is doing well.

New plan

Hey guys
I know it's been a while since I posted but there hasn't really been much excitement happening on my side. A few weeks ago I got to 70.6kgs... And thats it now and then I'll gain a kilo but it always comes back off again but I can't seem to pass 70.bloody6 so anyway I've come across a page on Facebook called the ashy Bines bikini body challenge I 'liked' it and I've been seein some excellent before and after shots of real girls, read some motivational stories and after reading all about it for about 3 months maybe 4 I decided to look into it abit more.
It's not a diet or a food plan but rather a guide of which foods u should and shouldn't be eating,( found out a lot of healthy foods I like are actually full of sugars and carbs) anyway the plan is bout $60 on the website but of course everything is cheaper on eBay lol so I bought it last week for $20 and the seller was kind enough to email me the ebook and send the hard copy in the mail so ive been reading through and researching a lil, Looks like I'll get started with the clean eating plan next week. I'm excited it's always fun starting new diet routines. With the plan u also get access to a members only forum type thing in Facebook where I can find girls sharing recipes, find answers to questions and heaps more. It looks great I can't wait to start, hopefully I'll see results as soon as those people.

70.6kgs lifes good

I'm so happy!! I might even reach one of my goal weights by Xmas, it doesn't seem that far away now. And all of this without purging, without starving, just by being conscious of what I eat and having a couple limits. I have to thank my fitness pal tho, it's been so good. I still Havnt really gotten round to working out properly yet. Just walking bout 30ish mins to and from the station and being on my feet all day at work as well I guess.
Today is the grand final.. Football stuff.. Not really that interested lol but it was also mums bday on tuesday so she's having a sort of joined footy BBQ/bday BBQ at her place tonight. I really do hope I don't pig out on everything, I really really have to be good, so wish me luck!
My boss said to me a few days ago I look like I've lost weight, I said no I should probably try huh?! She just looked at me and told me to eat fruit and salad for two weeks and it'll start coming off! Lol what the hell??!! It is tempting tho :-) but I know I couldn't do it.
I'm off to work again, well almost there I'm sitting on the train! Blahh cbf, I don't think I'll ever njoy working on a saturday!! It's such a drainer especially when u work til 4 and don't get out til 5 sometimes 6!
Oh I was up until 1:30am making mum a bday cake I fucked it up the first time coz I thought I'd be clever and add pineapple pieces--->> FAIL!I put too much in the batter which probably made it too heavy to rise, It's a pineapple and coconut cake with passionfruit icing & all sorts of cute trimmings.
Anyway rant over time for work!

Changing ways..

Ok good news I'm finally getting used to/in the habit of counting & sticking to my daily limit of 1000 per day. I'm starting to have breakfast in the morning (it makes such a difference) now & then I'll skip a day out of habit but that's slowly changing, this morning I didn't have it only because we went out or dinner for mums bday last night & I ate way too much!!
Saturday mums having a BBQ at her place for the footy grand final so I'll be eating there too.. So I have to be really good this week to kinda justify the crap I'll be eating on Saturday if that makes since, can't say I'll be good coz I know I'll binge on something.
ATM I'm sitting at 71.2kgs on the scales, I lost abit, not much. I reckon to really notice when someone's lost weight u have to lose at least 5-10kgs I realized that others notice weightless on people around that gap usually 10kgs. Like at work my boss lost 10kgs and ppl are only noticing now. A few clients came into the salon & I told them they've lost weight and they reply with "I've been dieting for so long, lost bout 10kgs now" etc. so my boss is 43 and weighs 10kgs less than me, Christine at work is trying to lose weight too she's taking all these vitamins and shit & her bf is getting her into fitness. I really need to get onto it 1: summer is around the corner
2: my boss is planning to get uniforms for the salon staff- they're tight fitting white shirts!
3: wanna make my bf happy
4: wanna make myself happy
5...list goes on and on and on

Anyone on myfitnesspal???

Seriously?????

I've been under 1000 calories all week drank so much water I need to use the bathroom 4 times an hour if not more, I've been walking everyday!! Lost nothing! Wtf is going on!!! Fml
The End!

Getting there!!!

I'm actually starting to Feel abit better about myself now, I mean I still feel super fat and I look horrible in anything I wear but I'm starting to control my eating a lot more, myfitnesspal is helping heaps (add me skinny_lil_me) and my food choices are a lot better than what they use to be.
I'm also starting to drink more water and I've started on meal replacement shakes as well! It's going so well, I've decided to start slowly obviously by reducing my calories each week I'm currently up to 1000 a day, most days I've been under that so I think I'll do it for about two weeks until I get used to it then do 900 for two weeks 800 for two weeks etc. and keep it at that,
As for working out... Argh! I'll get there lol anyway thumbs up!

On another note.. B and searching for work still getting nowhere! His not trying hard enough and it's driving me insane I don't know what else I can say to him to make him realise that if he doesn't get off his arse we're gonna have to get out of the house! And that will be the worst thing to go back home because we can't pay rent! We had dinner at a friends place on Wednesday night and they (I hope) made him realise that he can't be so relaxed about it all.. Maybe if he actually had savings that could last us for the next 3 or 4 months worth of rent he could be easy about it but he has $700 in his name which is enough for one month from his side!! One month that I have to pay end of next week!!! Argh so annoying I get angry just thinking bout it so I'll drop it.

Hope u all are well!!

I haven't left... Just another vent

I just don't have anything to say, I haven't weighed in now for weeks I don't want to I'm too scared and I know I've lost nothing, probably gained by the amount of junk I've been eating all the time & I'm just so stressed out because of B not having a job!! Work is stressful because One of our senior hairdressers just left past Saturday he got the sack! Then there's this fat body of mine indulging in fast food take out and deserts! Argh!!!!
B doesn't seem the slightest bit interested in getting a job, it's really pissing me off! His not looking and my stepdad offered him something but he wants to turn it down!! Seriously! We have rent to pay every month!! Yet he prefers to be a cleaner with One of my most annoying friends in the city with no proper scheduled days, u get called when to work, when this guy needs him which is hardly ever his worked one day in the month or so he got sacked!! I'm so frustrated! He smokes weed all day and has 3 broken down cars sitting around the house which will probably never run!
I don't know what to do anymore i think I need to start thinking bout ending it all cause no matter how many times I speak to him nothing ever changes it does for 3 days and it's back to normal again. I ask him to do things at home while I'm at work.. Get home 1 thing out of maybe 3 or 4 has been done!! He never answers his phone when I call or replies back to texts! I'm so sick of chasing up after him trying to get a reply, the money he does have which is hardly anything at all at the moment goes to weed, stupid smoking devices and crap like headphones, weird lighters etc! I can't trust him with anything, he seriously flips shit when I even touch his phone, sometimes I look through it & find nothing so idk y he freaks out... *sighs*
Don't know what to do.. Help