I purposely overate 4 times today just so that I could purge, I woke up and weighed in at 71.4kgs, I guess i couldnt stand the thought of being the same weight 3 days in a row so I had oatmeal this morning with butter milk and sugar-purged.made sushi because i was craving some last night had 1.5 handrolls-purged. mum (OMG IS ON A DIET YAY TO HEALTHY FOOD IN THE HOUSE) made fish and steamed veggies for dinner I actually had a whole meal-purged.hungry at about 9pm had 4kiwi fruits,handful of almonds, blueberries,chocolate toffee things-purged.
I cried because I was fat twice tonight, B said nothing just cuddled me which was ok with me I guess.
calories for today probably over 1000 I didnt bother counting because I purged it all.
I feel like i failed my diet because I felt the need to eat and purge. I dont even know what to say anymore :(
I mean its not because I couldnt do it anymore i just wanted to purge, why didnt I just eat under 500 and still purge I dont know oh wait maybe because I SUCK!
anyway as most of you know Im changing my diet every week this month and I've decided that next week Im only doing fruit and veg doesnt have to be raw veg but most of it will be.. and im still staying under 500 everyday and 800 on wknds! anybody want to join me??
Losing weight has become my number one priority, its all I care about, its all I want,Its all I need... is to be skinny
My progress...
I'm down to join you on this fruit and veggie thing. I am doing a raw type diet thing, it can be cooked, just nothing that isn't naturally from the ground, so no animal products, no processed food.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the fruit and veggies! I hate fruit, or I'd totally join you. I'll do veg and meat instead. :D
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good luck with the diet :) but hun be careful with all the purging...maybe if you overeat one day just endeavour to fast for a day or 2 after? you can do it xx
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