Thank you guys soooo much for all your beautiful comments it really means so much to me that you guys care :) I feel so stupid when I'm all like yay I reach a low weight then a week or so later im like FML I gained it all back, I feel like I'm letting all my readers down sometimes, anyway as you all probably guessed i picked myself back up and I'm back on track again.
I've started making a new diet plan for October (I know I probably said this about September) but this time I'm using the 4 weeks and having a different plan for each week, i think that way I wont get bored with it and I'll be abit more motivated each time, so I can think "ok its just this week" and then the next week il have a new plan :)
So far I've only done the first week, then calculated all the calories for everyday and I got so annoyed that some of the days were over 500 calories and I stopped to think about why I got so pissed off and its weird to me that I've become this calorie counting obssessed person, I mean i was counting calories and stuff but I didnt get this angry about it if I slipped up, and like with last week when I first stepped on the scale and saw how much I gained I felt like I was going to rip the skin off someones face, I never never ever got that angry about gaining weight ever!!
Also Mia doesnt really feel like going away either I purged twice today I had about 800 calories and purged it because I just felt fat and dirty inside, and usually it would take about 1500+ calories for me to want to purge but this time even that tiny bit of noodles made me feel sick. anyway so umm Ive decided to make a new account on youtube to progress my weight loss and stuff so il b making videos about that next month too. thats about all really i actually just wanted to thank all the girls that commented on my last post :)
love you all
goodnight
Losing weight has become my number one priority, its all I care about, its all I want,Its all I need... is to be skinny
My progress...
Love you more!
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And I'm liking the new system of changing the plan up every week, it sounds like something I kind of want to try. I think you and I need to set a time a side and have a girly catch up online chat with green tea lol.
<3 xxoo
There's nothing wrong with you! Love you too!
ReplyDeleteGood work with your october plan, changing it up sounds like a good idea- keeps life interesting & should keep you motivated :)
I know its hard but if you can try to avoid mia, she's addictive and painful.
Stay strong! xxx
woohoo for the start of a new month! i know you'll see all the success you long for. stay strong x
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