I need a proper plan, last night I was thinking bout going on a proper diet, the way normal people do, without throwing up or working out like a maniac and actually eating a normal amount of calories but........
I dont know what to do anymore.. Im fed up with myself, My fat ass body and being a fucking failure ALL THE TIME! Im staying in my room all day today and making up a meal and work out plan for this week and the next few weeks.(on tumblr)
I dont think I've ever spoken bout my rabbits on here before, some of u might know but some dont... well Beau got me 2 black rabbits for xmas last year male & female then i got a white female in march i think it was, they had babies the black one had 6 but 1 died and the white one just recently had 10 but 4 died. the first litter is about a month old now and the second litter a week. They're so cute I love em all to death, I really dont want to sell the babies but I know I have to. They're just sooo adorable.
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I purged today!! mum made mac and cheese and I had a small serving with salad and felt guilty as usual then... purged!!
I worked out today for 10mins burning 100calories (lame) went over to my friends place and cut her hair as well as her mums got back bout 30mins ago, its 11:15pm and I need to work out some more, oh and on top of that she made her brother go get us all KFC!!! I forced down 1 piece of chicken a few fries a glass of coke and scalloped potatoes her mum made... probably like 500cals right there!!HMPH!!
hmm.... oh and her dad poured me a glass of disgusting red wine which also i forced down and a few nuts not to look rude!!
I was so annoyed and ended up letting off steam to Beau on our way back home bout how pissed I was that I ate (wrong person chosen to vent) all he said was "it wasnt even that much food get over it and laughed at me"
anyway Im going to work my fat arse out on the elliptical hopefully i can do 40mins before falling asleep.
Honey, starving yourself is just going to set you up for a binge and more weight gain.
ReplyDeleteMaking a meal/workout plan is a great idea :) And do try to go shopping with you mum - it's better to have healthy things in the house to eat!
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it sucks when you dont reach your targets.
ReplyDeleteim on week 4, last week i gained 1kg rather than lose 1kg so im 2kg over where i should be right now considering my weight loss before, but in actual fact im on track as im 83.
buy healthy food...good luck.
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your doing soo well though! 69 from 81 is amazing. i cant wait to get back down to the early 70s...thats when the real work will begin!
ReplyDeletestay strong
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Do not starve your self, it is just setting you up for failure. Instead, lower your calorie intake and up your veggies. Drink more water and don't eat if you are not starving.
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