Day 3 ABC

300 cal day and I had 288, it was sooo hard especially round dinner (again) thats why I'm almost never home on a friday night cause my family always gets take out on fridays this has to be like the 2nd or 3rd time Ive been home on a friday night in the last 4 months i'm always at B's place or something but we had an argument and I just got pissed off at him making excuses not to go to the gym and making empty promises. after work today(3pm) he was supposed to take some guy he works with back home, then he was supposed to go get his gym clothes change whatever at his place and be at my place just b4 5pm, all this time I'm getting ready to go and i wait around for like 30mins looking at thinspo etc for the hell of it just waiting 4 him, then he calls at 5:15 outta nowhere he started feeling "really sick" I got so mad I didnt even say anything and just hung up on him, so he called back "why did you hang up on me?" "maybe because i'm so sick of you always making up lame excuses not to go to the gym its really annoying me now, oh and thanks alot 4 telling me at the very last min, when u were supposed to be at my place already, that you decided to feel sick and not come" "what so u think im lying about being sick, I cant help it, you have no respect, thanks so much 4 understanding..not! il talk to you later bye" and hung up on me..
whatever dickhead! as if he just said i have no respect, his been such a jerk to me this week.. all I ever do is try and be perfect for him I mean thats one of the reasons i'm losing weight, its pretty shit when your own bf calls you fat and calls you a whale or a seal or an elephant, I mean I know Im fat and all but no need to make me feel totally worthless and shitty about it am i right? he always says his only joking about it, and yea i smile and laugh too but inside it cuts me to pieces when he says stuff like that.
So after we both calmed down i spoke to him on msn about it and told him how I felt and everything,he didnt say much really I mean i got "I love you, you should know that no matter what" and "but this but that, we're in this together" bla bla bla but no sorry.then i went to have a long hot bubble bath for once cause I havnt had one in 4 ever, got into my pjs and fell asleep it was like 10pm now im awake again at 4am haha

So today, i woke up at 11:30am (I always wake up early on fridays for some reason, not like i have an alarm or anything, i just do) got hungry round 12:50pm had water until 2 cause I thought hey Im going to the gym so Il have something.. had red capsicum and raw mushrooms and a kiwi (57)
didnt end up going to the gym got annoyed and ate nothing so i did "muscle workouts" on wii but i dont really count that i dont feel like im doing anything, 10mins of squats and jumping jacks and did skipping for 15mins then mum came home with mcdonalds round 5.. thanks mum cause I really love stuffing my face with grease i gave it all to my lil brother who accepted it with the biggest smile ever and thanked me for being the best sister in the world. then after everyone finished their junk bout 30mins later i had a slice of wholewheat toast with 1 slice of shaved ham (150) then I had a orange and a kiwi fruit at 9ish (81) I dont know why, i just did, I try not to eat after 7 but i slipped anyway thats my day.

400cals tomorrow.. I have a bday party/night out in the city thing with a bunch of ppl i know and some i might not, but I really dont want to go, they're going to like 2 clubs and a bar or 2 pubs i dont know but it involves alot of drinking, which I'm not particularly keen on, so i need ideas and fast... I cant say im sick with flu or anything cause I saw em at the gym on wednesday and beau told em we would come.. I cant say I have something on because she told me to keep it open 2 or 3 weeks ago, if I say I feel abit sick/tummy bug/headache she'll tell me to pop some pills and Il be alright or to get over it, soon as i start drinking I'll be fine..something silly like that just to make me go so heellllppp!!! oh and i weighed in this morning at 77.4kgs arghh what happened to 76.8kgs i liked that more..