New dietary supplements!!!

Today was a good day mostly because B let me buy some dietary supplements and he paid for them :) yay I'm so happy!! I love him so much, he bought this protein shakes for himself too its pretty disgusting, its a weight gainer shake and has like 920cals in one shake!!! :-O its so funny how we're doing this together but opposite lol i feed him like theres no tomorrow while i watch him eat and feel grossed out & whenever i feel like having some of that chips or chocolate in the kitchen stashed away by my brother, i take some and give it to him, somehow it helps me :-s weird i know however I do crave sometimes like tonight mum made this stew with heaps of meat, rice, potatoes etc i did have some meat from his plate but nothing major like 2 or 3 bites, I stopped myself and made a fruit salad instead. I'm glad B isnt so anti weight loss with me anymore his kinda helping me, he just doesnt know that I purge he thinks I stopped and that I'm following a good diet, not a restrict every single thing diet, talking bout purging I havnt done that in a while come to think of it hmm.. I still need to eat less I feel like Im still eating too much, im still at 78.5Kgs..

This morning i had another one of those salad&chicken wraps: (cucumber/tomato/carrot/lettuce/avocado/78g of chicken &1 spoon of mayonnaise) 242cal according to calorie king should have left out the mayonnaise and avocado!
boost juice mango magic smoothie for lunch 442cal according to calorie king shoulda got a small not original!!
the fruit salad for dinner (strawberries/banana/kiwi) .. 139cal according to calorie king
Sometimes I think the info calorie king gives me sounds way impossible but i duno..
so 823 calories consumed today... 23 over my max!!!
I went to the gym and only stayed for an hour though i burnt 263 on the treadmill and 306 on the elliptical which all sums up to 254 for the day!! I always want to burn more than 800 when i go to the gym but I never can its so frustrating i always start feeling faint.

Anyway so more on my new pills... yayy i cant wait to start taking them tomorrow, so its like 2 in the morning and 2 before work outs if thats too much energy for me i can reduce the recommended intake il see how i go, I'm only allowed carbs in the morning otherwise all fruits, veg, protein etc for the rest of the day, they really really high in caffeine so i shouldn't have more than one cup of coffee a day which is fine, Ive stopped drinking coffee bout a month ago so thats not a problem, they practically going to raise my metabolism and give me heaps of energy throughout the day, they're also going to stop cravings for high carb foods, hence the reason i can only have carbs in the morning before i have my 2 pills and start my day (carbs which i probably wont have anyway) then i also got these other ones that will help stop cravings for sugar :) not that sugar is really a problem for me i dont think? but he got them for me anyway. Im really excited I cant wait! I feel really lucky having a boyfriend that spoils me so much, i think ive mentioned before that it makes me feel bad sometimes cause i have no job atm and i cant repay him or anything oh well il pay him back when i have a job..... or when were in bed :P

I think I might go lie down after this maybe watch another movie, i watched a movie with B a few mins ago and.. wtf??? its called anti christ if anyone has seen it?? i thought it would be like a real scary movie coz i love em but its just plain sick and twisted oh and.... well lets just say a few more nude scenes and its might as well be a porno lol and and and i also handed in my resume to 2 salons in a shopping mall bout 20mins away from me so wish me luck.. i really need a job im so bored being at home anyway i'm rambling now hope you all are doing well... off to read your blogs