Do you really want to see what this whale did???

Saturday night I had the dinner with B and his family, so we went to a pasta and pizza place and i ordered pasta :( because I binged on pizza the night before and i didn't really want to throw up in the restaurant toilets so i ordered a pasta with seafood it didn't have a creamy sauce which was good but it had an olive oil and herb sauce instead,so kinda made me think which one woulda been better! anyway point is i ate it.. all of it! it was real good but i felt like a pig..of course, B got me 4 cocktails too and i had a bit of garlic and herb bread which was like a pizza base baked in an oven, was weird i didn't have much, so that was Saturday nights food, got back to B's house and the power was out (a tree fell on the power lines) so we couldn't do much,, tried being nawty but he was just too tired and fell asleep on me (i mean under me lol *wink*) so i got annoyed but i did get rewarded in the morning for 2 hours tho :)
Then today I woke up and totally forgot to take my pills, had 2 mini pizzas for breakfast/lunch (round 2pm) had more pasta for dinner (spag bolognaise without spaghetti it was some other pasta) and a mango and vanilla Popsicle and 2 chicken drumsticks. zero glasses of water (OK 1) and lotsa fruit juice and 1 green tea.
Probably doesn't sound like much for a normal person but THATS ALOT like ALOT ALOT WAY TOO MUCH ALOT!!! i mean i still feel really full, and you know whats worse.. i haven't worked out since Wednesday last week!!! 4 days!!! 4 entire days with no exercise!! how lazy!! B promised me we would go Saturday he gets here and no... a tree fell on powerlines at his place and onto next door neighbours car, smashed it and also wrecked his dads boat and he had to help out so I couldnt get there, promised we'd go today but we got outta bed at 2ish so no point coz they close at 4pm didnt go again.
ARGHHHHHH I feel like a whale im so angry I stepped on the scales at B's place and I was at 78.4kgs :( that was after all my food, got to my house 3hours later stepped on them again and got a 79.1kgs I was just bout to burst into tears but i blame myself, i have got to get stuck into this, I have to put my head in this. i fuck up every weekend and it always happens when i go to Beau's place, good thing tho when we got back from the city Saturday night i didnt have chips and dip with him i didn't have some of his mac & cheese. well pff as if that would mattered anyway I already ate like a pig.

I've decided that this week instead of following my 500-800calories a day I'm going to have 300calories a day 400 max! I'm going to eat nothing after I get home from the gym and the weekend I'm going to do the 40 hour famine, Im giving up food and even if I don't raise money for it I still would have fasted!!
Im off to bed I'm sorry i haven't read that much tonight but I will do in the morning I need some thinspo. goodnight girls xxx