where do i start? i promised myself i wouldnt eat again after having that gigantic breakfast this morning but.. what do i go and do.. eat like 200g of grilled fatty oily salmon and about a cup full of salad with avocado, tomato, cucumber, capsicum and like 3 leaves which to top it all off gets smothered in salad dressing which is a major no no 4 me i've never liked salad dressing so its not only because of my diet so i HATE when mum puts the salad dressing over it.. why cant they just do that when the salad is on their plates if they want it so bad, its just flavoured fatty oiliness just like that salmon was, and im pretty sure everyone knows that salmon is probably one of the oiliest fish out there! and what do i go and do eat a whole heap of it! argh then i get given this insane amount of choc vanilla ice cream with slices of banana all over it and 3 strawberries, i would have liked to have that banana and strawberries without the super rich ice cream thanks! well i couldnt really do anything with it except throw it down my throat which is what i did being at the table WHY couldnt mum go to work tonight. i wanted to make my own dinner but then given the lecture of how all this food will go to waste, and mum cooked for no reason, and if i dont eat it she'll get mad bla bla because step dads out at some work function and lil brother lives on 2 minute noodles! so i sat down like a princess daughter and stuffed my face unwillingly!!
*sighs* anyway so i went with my boyfriend to pick up his new car and what do these people do.. place a giant platter of lollies and chocolate and candy infront of us.. thank god i resisted temptation :) it was hard though so i drank my glass of water.
got back home and did an hour on the wii fit jogging, steps, hula hoop & boxing drank another litre of water had a cigarette and im done for the day which probably wasnt enough :( i need more motivation, someone please tell me what to do and how to do it and that my entire world will come crashing down if i dont do it. oh and me & my other half spoke about joining a gym :) that would be heaven but seeing i have no job so no money for a membership unless his decided to be a awesome bf and get me one.
and by the way i think my scales are broken.. could anything else go wrong?? i step on it b4 dinner and im at 79.9kg which i thought was impossible then i step on it after my shower and im 80.5kg after dinner i step on it and im 82.9kg then i step on it just for the hell of it after wii fit and i weigh 80.2kg wtf!! all of that is wrong and now i officially dont know what i weigh and its driving me insane then used the wii to weigh myself and the lil arrow sits just under 79kg probably 79.9 or 79.8?? i dont know its not accurate enough and probably wring too.. HELPP ME!!!
anyway i should probably go get some sleep or try to at least its 4:42am this post is super long so thanks to anyone who manages to finish reading it. does anyone use msn messenger? or aim?would love to chat to you guys
stay strong girls, think thin
xoxo
Losing weight has become my number one priority, its all I care about, its all I want,Its all I need... is to be skinny
My progress...
I use wii to measure myself, not sure if it's right but i use it anyways. I find that if you weigh yourself at the same time in the morning everyday you will get a way better estimate than doing it at night, you seem to weight a lot more at night. Your weight also fluctuates during the day about 2 pounds and if you drink a lot of water b4 you weight yourself that is probably all just water weight. At least you got to your 80 kg goal, yay!!! I would go with the weight that it's the middle so i would about 80.5 kg but just try again in the morning and see what it says. Lack of sleep also makes you gain weight so make sure you get at least 8 hours of sleep and it lack of sleep also makes you overeat the next day due to a chemical reaction of lack of sleep and your body doesn't have a enough time to send enough lepton to the brain, lepton is a natural appetite suppressant and if your mind is lacking it, you usually eat more because you're hungry a lot more. IF you don't want to eat at meals i would either say you don't feel well or take a shower or a nap because if you're sleeping or they can get to you then they can't make you eat. Sorry i was never too good at getting out of meals but i always cooked a lot for my family and my meals for very low cal and i always slept through my first two meals or nobody every ever tell me to eat them because nobody is ever really around or wants to make anything. I find being lazy is actually good thing when you want to eat because if you don't want to get up cuz you're lazy then at least you're not going to eat and sure you're not burning cals but at least you're gaining. Sorry my comment is a mile long but if you need motivation or me to clarify anything or just want to talk i have Aim: Mizkitty64
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