Breakfast...

I must have probably just had the biggest breakfast known to mankind!!! argh I'm such a pig whats wrong with me.. that was probably an 800cal breakfast.. ok so maybe 680 but still 680 CALORIES OF BREAKFAST ALONE!.. thats almost 700cals well there goes eating for the rest of the day! noway in hell am i eating more than 1000cal again hence the reason i dont eat more than 800cal anymore coz 1000 hmmm that gets me nowhere so im not not not going back to that ever ever again il go back to fatso anyway, some good news i guess, so i couldn't help but step on the scales after that binge and I'm at 80.5kg *half mouth kinda forced smile* hmph! still not enough Im definitely not happy with myself.. i wish i could just sleep until i reached my goal weight then i wouldn't have to worry and stress about calories and exercise and planning meals and planning when to fast and when to do liquid diets and detoxing and how much to eat and what to eat and when to eat arghh someone shoot me.

CALM DOWN.....

OK so I suppose i can fit in 1 more snack today sometime in like 12 hours or something or i could eat tiny cubes of food through the day.hmm good thing we have some fruit (mum rarely buys fruit for some stupid reason so i gotta nag her for it you must be thinking wtf.. thats what i think every single time we have no fruit in the house cause its always all about lollies and chips and sweets and ice cream and choc chip muffins or massive blueberry muffins for that matter for 9 year old brother dearest, i swear I live in the worst household to be the way I am, probably explains why im so fat to begin with) some negative cal foods sounds good enough to me so i'll eat some fruit when i really need to, im so tired i've been up again all night i really need too get my body clock ticking properly i sleep all day and im awake all night should go live in the USA lol hmm wouldn't mind that right now its so damn cold here, im watching early morning news its almost 8am and im real tired, i called my boy just after my binge and told him i ate, his response "you gave up already?" why thanks make me feel abit more special than i already do after eating a cows worth weight in food blah im probably going to pass out soon i can barley finish this post yet i keep going, some man on tv is stuffing his face with chocolate in all forms yum.. melted choc, white, dark, milk, shredded choc, mint, nuts, orange, choc buttons, choc dipped in 100s and 1000s hmmm its some special chocolate day or someone who has alot to do with chocolate.. Kylie Minogue was on some lame tv show last night, its an ozzy show hey hey its saturday its called.. but it airs on wednesday nights hmm...lol now shes all over the news bla bla ok turning this off right about now.. also stopping all this rambling.

Lozz
xoxo