sorry but what the fuck is wrong with me!!! omg i already fucking binged today then at 12:30 in the middle of the night i to go get some water to take my laxatives next thing i know... oh y not have something to eat arghhhh. I think i just need to go to bed and sleep or fall asleep watching twilight (its on tv) i dont know whats gotten into me today seriously!!! gahhh. i did so so so soooo well this morning except for the banana then the avocado... then it all went downhill from 7ish-12:30am its like something inside of me has just gone "oh well you've eaten today so y the hell not?" so hmm I've pretty much fucked up this whole 3 day ease in before starting the lemonade diet these 3 day were supposed to help my system adjust to the reduced amount of calories il be consuming, and i decided to do it because I havent done the cleanse yet but yea so much for it. I mean i know it was optional and everything and you could skip it and just start with the lemonade, I just feel like such a failure yet again!! I couldnt even do 3 fucking days sticking to something so damn simple.anyway i cant do much about it now I guess tomorrow will be a fresh start to my lemonade diet and like i said il pretend these past 3 days meant nothing.I took some laxatives and I'm off to bed now tomorrow morning il do a salt water flush and be on my lemonade diet, il update.
goodnight girls, stay strong... stronger than me, Im sure thats pretty much everyone. oh and pardon my french, im just really majorly pissed off right now.at myself.
xoxo
Losing weight has become my number one priority, its all I care about, its all I want,Its all I need... is to be skinny
My progress...
Its ok hun. We all have those days. Some more than other..cough ..cough..ME!
ReplyDeleteIts so typical..you have one slip up and that opens the door to a binge. Its annoying. Hence why We try so hard to avoid the first bite, we know what will come next!
Its upsetting but the best thing is to acknowledge it, accept it, the get over it. this way you move on rather than dwell.
If you dwell then you will end up falling of the wagon and into one of those serial binges that lasts like a week +
So good luck tomorrow with the master cleanse.
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