Yay I passed =] I'm so happy I was so nervous when I went in I felt sick so i ate a banana and 4 spoonfuls of avodado :s I felt better but I was so mad at myself!grr I didnt even need the avocado but nooo nom nom nom away... thats all I've eaten today and I was only supposed to have OJ, water and tea I had a cup this morning oh and I broke the juicer somehow trying to juice my oranges now I have a heap of oranges that i cant juice properly eek, is eating/sucking the orange the same and having at least 2litres of OJ?? cause i bought enough oranges to make 1.5litres and thought it would be enough.Im so tired for some reason and I keep catching myself wondering off into space sometimes lol, on my way back home after doing my Learners test i felt nauseous in the car and my head felt like it was just bout ready to pop but i got home and had some OJ now Im good.
7 hours later.....
How embarrassing, I dont even want to tell you guys what I ate.. thats day 3 out the window, u know i keep telling myself its only the ease in process which is no big deal and you can skip that if u want to but its BS its just me having no motivation or control or anything, I suck!! tomorrow I start with the lemonade. GRRRRR!!!!!!!!! I just want it to work out anyway so I suppose Il tell you guys what I had
small plate of stir fried noodles
snacked with my brother on chips and chicken nuggets
(I felt disgusting and fat and purged until nothing came out anymore) then had 4 squares of nougat or however you spell it they prob like 1 inch by 2 but 4 wtf is wrong with me?? and a slice of ham.
I hate this shit I feel so fat and hopeless!!!! why cant I stick to a diet plan? this sucks my first 2 days were really good then i spoiled it with this. so much for ease in. anyway i guess il continue and see how it goes seeing that the ease in was an optional choice so il just pretend that i didnt do the ease in and went straight to the lemonade argh what a waste of time. blah im such a blob, i just drank a litre of water so i can feel full and not eat for the rest of the night, i might have an early one just incase but i always say that.
Oh I had this weird dream but I'll tell you guys bout it later, this post seems like its taken forever its so long just like all the others, sorry i just like letting it all out :)
Losing weight has become my number one priority, its all I care about, its all I want,Its all I need... is to be skinny
My progress...
You'll get there girly :] Just don't give up! Remember to always stay positive and the results will come so much quicker :]
ReplyDeleteI;m so glad you found my blog! I love yours and will definitely be following!! :]
Avacado sounds sooooo good right now!!
Have an amazing day
Love
Lilah
thanks so much im still reading your log everyday i read abit more lol just to see what your journey's been like so far. ill be following yours too :)
ReplyDeleteDon't be so hard on yourself. I agree with Lilah, you need to stay positive, and focus on the end results. At times, your going to fail, and cheat on your diet.. its like that for everyone. And as you even said yourself, the ease in was optional, so just pretend you didn't do it and start the cleanse today. Plus you purged, so its like your binge didn't even really happen.
ReplyDeleteKeep your head up, and focus on today, tomorrow and the days ahead, forget about yesterday.
-Rio xox